on moving on and greener pastures
February 25th, 2006 by gar1sometimes i hate moving on. moving on means you tend to forget some things. moving on means you have to leave some things behind. "you have to move on with your life," is what they say when something goes awfully wrong and you cant seem to get through the pain.
well, im moving on…
people say that they’re moving on to greener pastures when they leave. they think that what’s next for them is someting better, more extravagant, more exiting, something to look forward to. they get exited to leave what they have because they’ve gotten used to eating the same kind of grass everyday. they want something else now…
…sometimes the grass on the other side of the fence isn’t greener, its just a different shade of green.
i hate that id have to pay more just to be able to eat bagoong with my hilaw na mangga
i hate that id have to make my own itlog na pula to be able to eat one
i hate that id have to kill my own chicken to be able to eat isaw and dugo
i hate that there are no sari-sari stores near where im gonna live
i hate that id soon have to pay 5 frickin dollars for a pack of marlboro lights, plus tax!
and pay ten to watch a movie
i hate that im going to miss juday and piolo’s new movies
i hate packing my stuff in a balik bayan box
id rather pack a hamster with husky boy
i hate knowing i wont be able to see my friends for a long time
i hate that id soon miss our drinking days that would start early in the evening till eary in the morning
i hate doing this because i have to, not because i want to
i hate leaving the place ive lived in for the past 20 years
i hate that ive hurt people to get where i am now
i hate going somewhere i dont want to go
i hate the feeling of missing the things ive been accustomed to
i hate leaving the people i love behind
i hate leaving THE ONE I LOVE behind
… im’a be right back
